Non pensavo che avrei messo qualcosa di così triste qui.

Non mi capirai e io non tradurrò.

Magari è per qualcosa che ho detto o fatto. C'è qualcosa di sbagliato in me che non me lo vuoi dire.

Non mi parlerai e io aspetterò.

Come tutte quelle volte che non eri presente perchè eri troppo occupato a fare le tue cose. Aspetterò.

Delle volte io piangerò e tu non avrai nessuna idea.

Ci saranno dei momenti che la tristezza mi travolgerà e tu che farai?

Magari farai la stessa cosa che stai faccendo adesso?
Non mi parlerai? O mi tratterai con freddezza?

Non dico che è colpa tua. Perchè sicuramente ho davvero fatto qualcosa per indurti a trattarmi in questo modo. Ma i miei neuroni continuano a frullare. Non riesco a dormire. E di continuo penso il perchè del tuo comportamento.

E non mi parli. Stai zitto nel tuo piccolo per paura di combinare qualcosa di irrriparabile?

E io mi chiedo, come dovrei comportarmi in questi situazioni?

Labels: glenna, heart, rants, sad

Today, at work, I saw a "wolf-eyed" (someone who has amber eyes) guy. I don't usually look directly in the eyes of those I meet in the airport. Plane passengers annoy me to death most of the time with their stupid questions, you know. But today, I stared back into his eyes when he spoke to me. I actually thought at the same moment my eyes meet his that they were beautiful and I was about to babble it also! I'm just so glad I kept my mouth shut. I'd be deadly embarrassing! LOL. He reminded me of the ever adorable Edward Cullen. Haha

It's not the first time drooled over someone in the airport. There was this time that I saw someone who really looks like the guy I like. And OMG, his smile made my day. Haha. I finished my shift with a smile plastered on my lips. And with my mates teasing me that I was so hyper. Haha. For sure! I just met someone who could make my jaw drop. Haha.

The funny thing though is I can't recognized those celebrities who drop by the shop. Like yesterday, my supervisor asked me if I really didn't recognize Paola Barale who just asked me a question. *rolls her eyes* Duh. How could I? I don't read gossip magazines, I don't watch much tv and I definitely don't know most of the italian celebrities.
And it wasn't the first time I didn't recognize someone famous... there were episodes like this before... I didn't even recognize Laura Pausini the time she was there! Don't ask me in which planet I'm living in ok? Haha. :p


Today's my friend Queng's 20th birthday. Goodness! The days pass so fast! I'm almost 20!!! I'm not ready yet! I'm still single! Haha. Just kidding.

:P

Labels: random, rants

There's a lot of things that a 19 year old girl could do but it seems like nothing interests me at the moment.

My days are still productive only because I'm working my ass off for me to pay college. But aside from work I do nothing. I stay at home moping around, re-reading my favourite books and watching dvds. Even facing my computer has become boring to me. I stay up late and sleep less.

Labels: rants

Update. Update.

Updating my installment blog.

Haha.

It's been a while since my last update. Hindi ko talaga maasikaso ang magpost sa ngaun. Tinatamad kasi ako saka wala akong masabi.

Anyways, nothing has changed. Bored pa din ako. Patay na patay social life ko sa ngaun. Lagi kasi gabi shift ko sa trabaho tapos late na akong magising... kaya wala na talagang time para gumala. Pag-off naman ako, puro may trabaho mga kaibigan ko. Ayaw ko naman lumabas ng mag-isa. Maiinip lang ako sa labas.

Pwede din naman ako humanap ng new friends. Kaso lang... paano? Haha. Hindi nga pala ako marunong makipag-interact sa ibang tao aside from my relatives and friends. Mataray daw kasi mukha ko at mukhang suplada daw. Haha. Ewan. Mabait naman ako. Haha.

Btw, na-isipan kong manood ng concert ni Jason Mraz sa Milano sa Sept. 18. Ininvite ko yun katrabaho ko para may kasama ako pauwi... Haha. Hirap kasi ng walang kotse or license. Hirap umuwi pag gabi na. Nakakatakot.

Gusto ko na tuloy magkaroon ng lisensya! Ang hirap ng umaasa pa sa iba eh. Minsan ayaw akong sunduin. Minsan nakakahiya sumabay.

Ang problema lang, mahal ang lisensya. Haha. Mahal ang bayad at wala pa akong budget para dun. Mahirap ang buhay pag walang pera.

Pwede ko na bang sabihin na ang pera ang ugat ng problema ng maraming tao? Haha. Ok Hindi akin 'to. Narinig or nabasa ko 'to sa kung saan. Hindi ko lang matandaan.

Aalis na ako, sa susunod na lang ulit ako magpo-post.

Paalam.

Labels: random, rants

Ok, I forgot.

I need to do a new banner for my theme and think a new URL.

Gaaahh! That's why I hate stalkers! Pinapadami nila trabaho ko! haha.

I don't feel like updating yet but I'm really really bored. I just thought visiting my net accounts and updating them. eheh.

Anyways, I'm working 7 hours again today (even though it's Sunday!). I'm so tired. I just want to lazy around. Sigh..

I'm sleepy. I'm going.

What a nonsense. Haha.

Labels: rants

Lumipas na naman ang isang araw na walang nangyayare sa buhay ko.

Well, may nangyare naman. Nabawasan na naman ang pera ko. Sigh. Kaya ayaw kong lumabas ng bahay eh. Masyadong magastos.

Actually wala talaga akong maisip na ipost. Naiinip lang talaga ako. Wala akong makausap. Natutulog na ang iba, ang iba naman busy at kausap ang mga partners nila...

Haaayyyy.. gusto ko na din ng boyfriend! Sa dinami dami ba naman ng lalaki sa mundo ay wala bang magkamali sakin? Haha. Gusto ko nang may nakakasama ako sa mga gusto kong puntahan. Gusto ko may nagpapasaya sakin. Nalulungkot na ako! Ke palle!

La felicità è così lontana.

Labels: love, rants

Hindi ako iiyak. Gaano man kamiserable ang nararamdaman ko ngaun ay hindi ako iiyak. Bakit pa diba? May mababago ba? Diba wala naman.

Sa buong buhay ko kayo lagi una kong iniisip pero nagsasawa na ako. Naisip kong ako naman ngaun. Sarili ko naman ngaun ang uunahin ko. Minsan gusto kong mainis kasi imbis na paginhawain nyo buhay ko ay mas lalo pa nyong pinagugulo. Wala naman kasi kayong pakialam. Sarili nyo lang mga iniisip nyo.

Kung alam ko lang noon na ganito ang mangyayare hindi na sana ako pumunta dito. Sana sa Pilipinas na lang ako. Pero naisip ko noon na gusto ko kayong makasama. Siguro kung makakasama kayo ay sasaya ako. Tumanda na ako at nagkaisip pero hindi ko man lang naramdaman ang kalinga nyo.

Bakit ganun? Hindi ako masaya kahit sama sama tayo? Bakit hindi kayo matuto? Bakit ang gulo natin?

Napapagod na ako. Nararamdaman nyo ba yun? Kaya lagi akong iritable kasi nagsasawa na ako sa takbo ng buhay natin. Walang pagbabago. Paulit ulit ang problema at ang mas nakakalungkot ay wala kayong pakialam.

Kung maari lang... kung kaya ko lang... aalis na ako.

Kung kaya ko lang sana. Kung marami lang sana akong pera.

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Labels: rants

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate what I'm feeling!

It's stupid.

I'm being foolish.

It's going to destroy everything.

I have to stop it.

I'm stopping.

I'm suppressing it.

Because I'm selfish.

Because I'm a coward.

Because I don't want to be hurt.

Labels: rants

Love is blind. Love is stupid. And especially for fools like me.

Hola! :]

I know. I know... my blog has became an installment. Haha. I've put the banner. Well, it made my blog ugly but don't worry, I'm planning to change the whole skin soon. Just bear with me some more please... haha.. I'm really busy you know! :D

Anyways, here are some updates about me. :P

For starters, my job is starting to get more and more boring each passing day. I almost learned everything I should know. Hindi lang yun! I'm also starting to dislike the passengers in that airport!
Pag tinanong mo nang: "destinazione?"... sasagutin ka nang: "huh?"... Tapos pagbinago mo nang: "destination please..." sasabihan ka naman nang: "What do you mean?". Alam mo yun, sa pagtatanong lang ng destination kelangan mong sabihin ng sunod sunod ang: "Destinazione...Destination... Destino..." pag hindi pa din maintindihan: "Where are you going?" or "Dove sta andando?". At kung hindi pa din talaga maintindihan ang tanong ang last resort ay: "Milan to....?". Haha. Nakakaloka!

Saka eto pa: WALANG SMOKING AREA SA AIRPORT! I know. I know. It sucks for those who smoke. Pero wala talaga. Dami ngang nagrereklamo. Ang daming hindi naniniwala. Pero anong magagawa ko? Alangan naman magimbento ako noh!


Uhmm.. curious about my incipit?

Well, that's what I'm currently feeling. As you may imagine... I think I'm inlove. I think! I'm not sure yet or maybe I am? Waah! Dunno! The feeling's so awkward though ain't unexpected. Someone even saw it coming! Haha.

I have a stupid smile plastered on my face lately. Thinking of him makes me smile!! I'm not normal! No. I'm not normal these last few days.

Curious about the guy? Sorry pero hindi ko pwedeng sabihin kung sino ang bida ng aking kwento. And I definitely can't tell you more than what I already said. I'm afraid for him to know. I'm not ready yet. Kaya kayong may alam... silent! Don't let the information leak out! Did I make myself clear? Haha.

lots amore,

Glenna

Labels: love, rants, work

Woooh! I really had a bad time yesterday. I didn't even had a decent sleep cause I was so worried about what happened at work. Therefore I was starting to get paranoid, like the head division will yell at me or worst.. they'll sack me! etc. etc.

Luckily I met Giovanna, one of my colleagues, at the train station this morning. I explained her what happened and she assured me by telling that she had experienced something like that too in the past. I even told her that I didn't tell anybody about what happened even to the supervisor. And again she said that I better keep my gaffe to myself, unless somebody goes complaining. Haha. It's some protection from the other colleagues who are always there waiting for your mistake and ready to discredit/to bad mouth you to the supervisor. LECCACULO!

After having that conversation with Giovanna I'm less worried now. I can say that I'll be sleeping soundly tonight. Hehe.

Well, that is it! From now on I'll be extra careful! I promise! I will always remember to check the liquors' boxes before sealing them in the bag. With the receipt of course! Cause if not, I'll be in great trouble.

Anyways, today I was destined at the LAST MINUTE SHOP with Enrico, where only few people buy. What we only do there is chat or get ourselves bored by watching people passing with their hand luggage. Act to do something productive, like arranging the goods on the shelves when the Director is there checking. Haha. But most of the time, like I said before, we do nothing there.

Till here. Till next update!

Labels: rants, work

I blew it! BIG TIME!

Today at work I've sold a bottle of liquor, a Remy Martin worth €130 to be precise, with the anti-shoplifting tag (I don't know how is it called). Damn! I'm kinda in limbo now because I'm afraid that the client may complain.

It wasn't my fault. Well, partially my fault because I haven't checked inside the box. This may sound only an excuse (actually, it's an excuse) but the bottle was inside the box and I didn't know it has this anti-shoplifting tag inside. Nobody told me that liquors in the boxes have this tags inside.

What to do?? What to do??

I don't know. I'm so clueless. I didn't even told my supervisor about it because I was freaking terrified when I realized that I've done something wrong. And it was about an hour after doing the sale operation.

Even the client didn't come back though when the alarm rang. I just wish that that person won't go complaining. Because if she complains I'll be in deep shit. And believe me when I say deep. In every receipt it's printed the cashier's number. Easily they will know that I was the one who sold it. Gaahh. I can't even imagine what would happen to me.

Anyways, to get rid of that annoying tag, she/he just needs to get a pair of scissors and cut the plastic band around the bottle's neck. It's already nice that the tag was locked with a plastic band. Because if it wasn't, she/he wouldn't be able to open it. And with this scenario, it's more likely that the client would complain. And I'll be doomed.

Let's hope for the best end for this disaster.

Well, at least me, I'm hoping for an happy ending.

Labels: disaster, rants, work

A new blog account. I can't even remember how many times I've changed blog. Honestly, I didn't even want to delete my previous account. Nanghihinayang kasi ako sa mga entries ko. It's just that someone I loathe keeps on leaving me creepy messages on the Cbox. Badtrip. Kinausap ko na nga siya para tigilan na ako pero tuloy pa din siya. Grabe! Hindi ata nakakaintindi ng tagalog ang loko. Tsk.

Ang mahirap pa nyan, kahit ilang beses ko iblock ang IP address niya ay nagagawa pa din niyang mag-message. Paano? Gumagamit siya ng ibang computer! Gaaaahh!! Kaya eto wala akong magawa kundi idelete yun lumang account ko at gumawa na lang ng panibago. I'll try my best to keep this blog secret na lang sa feelingerong yun!

Marooooo'! Quanto l'odio!!!

Labels: rants